Question: For many years I have been going through internal conflicts of all sorts which are maddening and scaring to say the least. I have many a times thought that I was getting mad or insane. I searched through the net and from a medical point of view; I found that I was suffering from anxiety and depression. I can never stop thinking and worrying all day and night. During these periods, I was working for an MNC, getting paid good, I had nothing to worry, but still I did not know what was going on with me, life was miserable. I used to work in night shift; in fact I am working still in night shift for almost 3 years. I would hardly sleep for 4 to 5 hours during the day. One day, a year or so ago, my thinking went to such extremes that I starting sweating all over, I felt my heart racing, and I was fear struck. It was a horrible feeling. For a moment I even contemplated killing myself because, I could not live with myself, my mind was going wild. I talked to my friend about this. Then came the best part. Suddenly from the next day, I experienced something new, something I have never experienced the whole of my life. I was in total harmony with everything, walking; sleeping, eating, breathing and just living gave me extreme joy. I could not understand where I was getting this energy from, I was literally flowing, and life was no longer a burden. It was much more than what I could describe with words. “This state” continued for 2 weeks or a little longer, and again I went back to my normal state of mouring. “This state” happened after that a couple of times, lasting for a week or so. After that it stopped happening completely. From what I have researched through the net, I found that I was may be “enlightened” during those states. At present, I am living my same restless, anxiety-ridden life, in fact even worse these days. I am not sure where to go from here… I am totally confused…..is it possible to attain “that state” ever in life or all these just manifestations of my own mind. Your advice is greatly appreciated as soon as possible, because I am getting very desperate there….