Question: respected gurujis, please answer my questions sir, i am in a sort of philosophical crisis after for about 3-4 years tryst with spirituality i feel the want for nirvaana (though might sound selfisf) should i renounce the world to attain it. my istha is lord krishns and i love him. do only monks attain moksha. though it may be called maya i feel a responsibility to look after my mother (especialls since she has done so much for me and totally loves me ) and i feel lord krishna has given me all these to look after and i have to do it. but doing so do i again become materialistic i am caught in an intense debate- to renounce or not to renounce. if all monks attain the supreme goal even i want it but do ihave the strength to renounce and give up my prescribed duty or is it better to do my duty. i am a 2nd year mbbs student and becaues of this debate my studies have suffered I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO please advice me and give me a blueprint of how i should lead my life to reach krishna should i just accept evrything as the wish of krishana (even ma studying medicine and becoming a doctor) and work or become a monk – please reply very very urgently because unless this is solved i just cannot do anything- not even do my basic duty of studies pleasse….. answer back to *******@*******.com
Answer: Please let me have your full address so that if there is any centre of ours nearby, I shall direct you to go & meet the Swami there, so that you can know things in detail. Don’t get confused in mind, your first duty is to complete your medical graduation. By that time, you will be quite mature and also you can decide what life to take over. For the present, don’t think of renouncing anything. Pray to Lord Krishna whole heartedly and also serve your mother. If one is sincere, he can see Lord Krishna, either being a good devotee or a monk. It is not exclusively meant for anybody. In life, duty stands first and for the present, the duty of a student is to study well. Lead a good & clean life. Pray sincerely & read good books, when you find time.
Response to the Answer: thank you for your advice, found much solace after many months. i reside at Basavaswarnagar.
Reply to the above Response: You have written that you are at Basavaswarnagar. I don’t know if it is at Bangalore. If so, you can kindly come someday so that we can discuss further. You may take an appointment before coming here by telephone.
Response to above Reply: I live in bangalore sir surly after my exams i will be coming to meet you .please mould my spiritual life so that my fickle mind does not hither and tither and firmly stands in bhakthi .lookinn forward yo our meeting.